What is body positive?

I have seen this body positive wave happening on the inter webs lately and its interesting. How do you go about being body positive? Do you wake up in the morning and tell yourself how happy you are with your body and you are accepting it in all its forms? If so, fuck that body positive shit. I am struggling with loving my body through all of its ups and downs. I lost roughly 25lbs last year and for a little while I felt like I was being ridiculed for my weight loss – it was too much, I looked too thin, people liked me when i was bigger. I started fighting with myself and constantly looking in the mirror trying to figure out what was wrong with my body.

Ugh, my thighs are getting too small.

Shit, what if my butt gets smaller. 

I looked better bigger.

Ew, my collarbones are too pronounced.

It wasn’t until recently that I came to the conclusion that I am so sick and tired of giving a shit about how others view me. My doctor and I both know my body best which means I am the healthiest I have been in a loooong time. I eat relatively clean but don’t starve myself, I exercise 3x a week and I allow myself cheat days where I can do absolutely nothing because my body deserves it.

That is what body positive is to me – understanding and loving my body at every stage we’ve been in. The number on that scale does not matter to me because I know I am healthy and happy with who I see.